Yeah, I know. I suck at updating this thing. Truth is, I think I needed some time to mourn and process my results. They weren’t bad, don’t get me wrong. But you know how you feel like you work your butt off and feel like you’re really making progress but it turns out you’re only an inch further down the road than you were before? Or how you want results, BIG results right away, but like all good things they take time? Do you ever feel like Paula Abdul taking 2 steps forward and 2 steps back? Doesn’t all of it make you want to scream? Or maybe sit down and have a good cry?
So I made it 7 weeks. 7 weeks of eating only meat, veggies, and legumes and nothing deliciously bad for me other than cheat days (except for that day I had a medical emergency at work and earned a frappichino and chocolate). I spent 3-5 days a week at the gym. I nearly hit my goal as I lost 2.8% body fat. That’s good right?! But it feels like so little! I’m still at over 40% body fat; talk about depressing. It’s so easy to put on a pound or 5 but to take them back off just plain sucks. I lost 6.5 lbs in 7 weeks- just what one would want to see for a healthy weight loss- an average of 1 lb a week. But guess what? I don’t want to be average! I want to look great, feel great, and have a nice toned body TODAY!
Whew. So that’s how I felt. I cried a little- though in my defense we did have to fast for the morning of our test out and I had just done a hard workout on an empty stomach and it was now 12:30 pm. I may have been a bit hangry and overly emotional. As the day went on I tried to turn my perspective around. Afterall, I had lost 6.5 lbs, could now wear pants WITHOUT a muffin top, fit into my pants I haven’t worn in about 1 year, and have more energy. I had lost 1 inch around my neck and around my upper arms, I have “almost bumps” of muscles in my biceps, and I lost 4.5 inches around my waist. Yep, you heard me FOUR AND A HALF INCHES!! Everyone who saw my before and after picture was pretty impressed- No, I will not be sharing it here. But if you see me in person I might show you if you ask nice and compliment me on how good I look.
So after all of that, I am pretty proud. It’s been getting harder to maintain the diet. I find myself slowly starting to sabotage myself and with sickness moving in and out of our house it makes it too easy to miss workouts. There is still the part of me in the back of my brain that says- “Why bother?! All that work and you’re not getting anywhere!” But I AM getting someplace and if I don’t stick to it I know I will go somewhere- just not anywhere I want to go again! So, I’m sticking with it. I will have days that are great and and days where I’m hangry, but I will get there with perseverance.